I look out the window & all I see is rain...

The weather was pretty crappy today, but that's nothing new. I'm missing Cuba today more than ever. I don't know how to tone this feeling down... it's not like I won't be going back. It's my home of course I'll be back. I always do. I guess I just gotta keep myself busy till then. Ugh. It will definitely be a challenge, considering the fact that I'm hating everything about this town right now. Again the weather is NOT helping.

Siiiigh. Toodles for now.

-xoxo, aksana.

Song & Picture Of The Day.

Friends, Lovers Or Nothing - John Mayer.

-xoxo, aksana.

Fuck. I do not want to be in Canada right now. I am currently suffering with the Holiday Blues...cause my trip to Cuba this year was effing amazing... and I'm really really really sad that I'm not there at the moment. :'( I think this trip made me realize how proud I am to be Cuban. Like REALLY, seriously proud! Aside from the mental government, the people are the best kinds of people in the entire world, hands down. Full of life even with their hard ships.. and let me tell ya... Their hard ships are far from a piece of cake. My culture is amazing. My people are amazing. My weather and ocean is amazing. My food, my family, my music is fucking amazing! Mi cuba linda indeed. My bestie and I also met a whole lota amazing non-cubans.. some brits, welsh, canadians, and argentinians! All great people! Will hopefully be visiting our Uk friends this coming summer! Again, I love and miss Cuba so much.. and i dont think this feeling will go away for awhile... in fact im happy to say it'll last forever. Fuck, I need Cuba now.

-xoxo, aksana.

The ultimate wealth is happiness!

I'm really happy right now! I'm leaving for Cuba on Friday with my amazing parents and best friend. I'm also happy because everything is beginning to look a lot brighter. I have such great people around me. My friends, even with all my imperfections, love me and support me. I feel like all the negatives are still there, but they're weak, they're easy to deal with. I feel like the Lord is helping me so much. He wants me to be happy, and I can truly feel that in my heart. I'm so thankful for my life. I have it great and I wouldn't want it any other way. I feel like the Lord will send me to where my passion and his passion for me lies. He's guiding me. It's a slow process, but he is. I never knew happiness before I found him, I never knew joy before I accepted the way God made me to this day,I never knew love like I do now. The love of the people around me and the love of the father. I will continue my journey with Christ, he has big plans for me, and I'm there following him as he guides the way. Oh, happy day! Thank you Jesus!

-xoxo, aksana.

Let them eat cake!

As I am writing this I am also profusely salivating because of all these delicious desserts.

I want them to fall right out of my computer and into my hands... then into my mouth.

Dammit! My life is so hard! ... If you don't already know, I live on chocolate, desserts..etc.

I am probably the modern Marie Antoinette <-- maybe..

I do have the biggest sweet tooth of all and I am constantly thinking about sweets.

Om nom nom.

Thank the Lord Jesus I am not unhealthy or over-weight.

Enjoy these wonderful photos of inspiration with me.

Please try not to cry.

-xoxo, aksana.

sighh...

To: My love.

Dear husband,

I don't know you yet, but I know you're out there somewhere.. probably with the wrong girl. I just can't wait till the day I meet you, I know the Lord will show me you're the right one... with prayer of course. I love you already, and I think about you all the time. What are you like? What do you look like? I promise you I will be the best wife, I will be loyal to you, I will love you with all my might, I will care for you. I will also expect things from you, I will expect you to love me with all YOUR might, and that you will always defend and fight for me, that you will be a good father and that you will always be honest with me. I will do things for you and I expect you to do things for me in return. We will be partners in crime, and so in love. I will save myself for you, and I will cherish every moment I spend with you. I will still be in love with you when we're old and grey and I expect you to be an uber cool gramps with the grand-children! We will go to church every sunday, have 3 kids and adopt 1. I pray that you stay safe out there without me... or at least till the day we meet. I promise to always protect you and follow anywhere your jobs take us.. with that said, i will always support you. Husband of mine, I'm waiting for you, I love you and I'll be seeing you soon.

Your beloved wife, Aksana.

xo.

*To those of you that did not fully understand my letter, I am not married, this letter is meant to be written or written about my (future) husband. I just feel so strongly about my one and only (in all aspects) so I decided to write this letter. Inspired by Verlynn, who too wrote a letter to her husband on her blog. http://verlynnsdiary.tumblr.com/ *

Song & Picture Of The Day.

I Need You Now - Lady Antebellum.

-xoxo, aksana.

V's Happy List.

VERLYNN'S HAPPY LIST.

1. When my church is free worshiping and it sounds like a choir of angels

in one accord harmonizing and complimenting each voice.

2. When you're in a car or on the skytrain and you look out the window

and the scene is just so miraculous that you can't help but think, how can there not be a God?

3. The smell of camping.

4. When you're listening to a song, and you're so touched

and love it so much you're just smiling right through it.

5. When you look at someone and you know that they get you.

6. The nervous rush you get before you're on stage.

7. When you're performing on stage

8. The butterfly feeling.

9. The thought of Love.

10. JESUS makes me happy =)

Thanks for sharing, Verlynn!

Love you! xoxo

Current Musique.

When it comes to my playlist, I'm always switching it up.. it's just depending on my mood.

Currently I've been listening to a few awesome albums + songs, none stop.

Check em' out & enjoy. :)

*In no specific order*

Albums:

1. Kate Earl. (Self-titled)

2. Ingrid Michaelson (1.Everybody 2.Girls And Boys)

3. Britt Nicole. (The Lost Get Found)

4. The Script. (Self-titled)

5. Phoenix. (Wolfgang Amadeus)

6. James Morrison. (Songs for you, Truths for me)

7. City And Colour. (Bring Me Your Love)

8. Adele. (19)

9. OneRepublic. (Waking Up)

10. Vampire Weekend (Contra)

Songs:

1. Saltwater Room - Owl City

2. Live Like We're Dying - Kris Allen

3. When I Look At You - Miley Cyrus

4. Say Yes! - (Gospel music)

5. Carry Out - Timbaland ft. Justin Timberlake.

6. Try - Asher Book

7. The Spell - Alpha Beat

8. Playing God - Paramore

9. Too Young - Phoenix (Album: United)

10. Vienna - The Fray

Every song makes me feel differently. I love music.

Take music away from me, I would most definitely die.

Check a few of the albums out, they are all really amazing.

Let me know what you think.

-xoxo, aksana. <3

Song & Picture Of The Day.

Live Like We're Dying - Kris Allen.

-xoxo, aksana.

Ak's Happy List.

Al Karim's Happy List.

1) when the warm sunrise beams off your face as your teeing off.

2) the crisp and moist grass.. as a golf club strikes through it.
3) house music: as it just flows through your body.
4) the nervous blood rush of a golf swing.
5) hearing an engine red-line in second gear.
6) when sweat trickles down your face.
7) morning sex.
8) a hockey rink, filled with 18,000 fans; anticipating for that big goal to be scored.
9) when a golf gallery erupts in triumph, as the worlds best drops that 15 foot putt.
10) when the love of your life.. - will always and forever..through thick and thin..till death do us part:
makes you feel rejuvenated; gives you those nervous goosebumps and makes the hair on the back of your neck stand up.

Thanks for sharing, Ak!!

xo

My Happy List.

Aksana's Happy List.

(Let this be a secondary example of your potential happy list. This is mine)

*Inspiration and credits go to Naomi<3*

1. The smell of wet pavement after a summer rainfall.

2. Laughing til it hurts and til it feels like you've done 200 crunches.

3. Candid photos.

4. The relief after a much needed cry.

5. Listening to an inspiring song on blast, and feeling every emotion in the words.

6. Renting a bunch of movies for a cozy junk food night.

7. The innocence of a child.

8. Those irreplaceable moments you have with your family. One's you'll never forget.

9. When an elderly married couple is still in love.

10.The colors of Twilight, and how fresh the air seems when breathing it in.

I want to post yours, so message me as soon as you can!

Thanks everyone, hope to be reading everyone's soon. =)

akoung@hotmail.com

-xoxo, aksana

Happy.

The world, aside from it's disasters, ultimately should be a happy place.

If you don't have cars, money, or the finer things, don't fret,

those things truly do not fill the void of emptiness and sadness.

The littlest things can do that.

Here I have (14) wonderful little (& big) things that put a smile on my face.

The wonderful things that make me, happy.

1. Tourists. Anywhere you go, or even if you're just

in your home town, you can spot a tourist a mile away.

I've experienced many of them during the

Winter 2010 Olympics here in Vancity.

They are indeed the cutest things.

2. Rachel Weisz. Incredible actress and a timeless beauty.

Her charisma and that lovely brit accent can't not make you want to melt.

3. This kitchen! Yeaa, I'm sure some rich person owns this amazing kitchen..

Regardless, it still inspires me to work hard in life,

but not to get myself some mansion of a house,

instead a lovely country styled home. With a hint of modern.

4. No not this girls tan or shirt... but the lovely cross around her neck.

My love for Christ fills that void, that emptiness everyone seems to feel in their hearts.

It's a difficult path to take in life, considering the distractions.

I'm not ever going to say it's easy, far from it.

I am going to say that once you feel him in your heart,

where only YOU can feel it and know it's him.

That's when you know, no matter what, he's got your back.

He loves you and he truly wants you to be happy.

Just trust in him and what he has planned for you, and you will be saved. <3

5. Dalmatians. I don't really see many of these cuties around very often.

I just know that they are adorable, and classy, and wonderful.

Would love to own one (or a 101? ). Sooo cuute!!

6. Picnics! Who wouldn't enjoy a lovely (romantic) picnic!

I will definitely be picnicking a lot more often this upcoming summer.

7.Don't really agree with the disgusting cigarette in her hand, so please disregard that!

I just love it when girls only wear flannel, panties and old gum boots.

Just kinda looks hot! (FYI I am heterosexual. Lol)

8. I love this Virgin Mary ring, waaant! ( I don't like the lighter)

9. I love wet dogs! So adorable! Especially out of the bath,

cause they smell good and not like wet doggie. I need to give my pup a dog asap!

It's really cute when I'm finished bathing him,

he runs around the entire house like a crazy beast,

and rolls around everywhere. He either loves it, or hates it.. a lot.

10.Cozy rooms.

My goodness that room just makes me want to read a book,

drink tea, and listen to soothing music.

Loooove! ( warm greens and floral wallpaper..gawsh <3)

11. Beautiful blondes. My entire life being a brunette,

I have always wanted to be a blondie. They just look so clean haha!

Too be completely honest I like natural blondes, if you're born with it, I envy you!

I do believe some girls can pull off the fake blonde look,

but only some. Most just look whack.

Sorry, but it's true.

12. Tea. Tea. Tea. What more can I say?

I love Tea!

13. Umm! I want to squeeze the cuteness out of this little pup.

So effing cute! GRRRRRR

14. This one's a little weird.

I love Miley Cyrus. A lot of people envy her to the point where they hate her.

If you don't like her that is fine, I just think that growing up in the spotlight,

and starting at such a young age, she's going to make mistakes.

Her life is just there for everyone to see.

If you don't like her acting or music either, that's also fine.

Everyone has an opinion.

Mine is that, I actually really like the girl,

and I do believe she's very talented :)

I'm excited to see her first motion picture role aside from disney!

The Last Song!!!

I just recently began reading the book,

it's by the amazing Nicholas Sparks!

I'll be done by the end of this month,

right before the release date of the film. March 31st!

I think it's going to be great!

-xoxo, aksana

p.s. Those are just the few things amongst the billions of things that make me happy.

Would love to know about yours, whoever is reading this I mean.

Message, email, or tell me in person what makes you happy.

I will post it as your happy list.

(happy list inspired by RockstarDiaries)

Song & Picture Of The Day + Update!

La Bomba Soy Yo - Los Van Van.

(Paradise in 6 days! Huzzah!)

-xoxo, aksana.

pretty little brand new thing.

Look at my shiny new toy! Isn't it pretty? I think so!

My new Sony HD Camcorder! Not just 'My new', more like 'MY FIRST'!

I am so stoked to start filming pretty much everything! I'll film my entire Cuba trip, edit it, then post it for all of youtube to see. Then right after Cuba my bff Verlynn (the V in V&Aetc) will be making lots and lots of crazy videos for our youtube channel. Look out for it, and subscribe! I'd really like to thank my Pops and Christ for this wonderful gift, if it weren't for them I highly doubt I'd be able to afford it myself. Yay! :)

Pale vs. Tan!

Pale vs. Tan!

Click on the link, and look through all 14 celebs.

Then let me know what you thought, pale or tan??

Personally I don't see anything wrong with getting a nice vacation tan,

especially cause I'm sure none of us get a break as often as we deserve, am I right?!

I am pale naturally, I do not fake n bake, I love the way God made me.

I embrace my paleness, but I'm definitely getting a tan this upcoming week in Cuba!

With lots of sunblock of course.

Don't forget the sunblock ladies (& gents)... Skin Cancer is not something to toy with.

And remember pale IS beautiful, no matter what society tells you.

-xoxo, aksana.

P.S. If you are naturally tanned or dark! You are truly blessed :)

The dark wanna be light, the light wanna be dark. Nobody is ever happy.

Why don't we just love and embrace ourselves people!?

We are all beautiful, don't forget it <3

Also, Orange is NOT considered a tan.. that's just wrong. You ppls iz crazy.

Song & Picture Of The Day.

Sleeping Sickness - City And Colour.

-xoxo, aksana.

Song & Picture Of The Day.

Carry Out - Timbaland ft. Justin Timberlake.

-xoxo, aksana.

I am Canadian.

Wow OHH CANADA INDEEEED! We have broke the records baby, 14 GOLDS!!! WHAAAAAT!?

I know, it is truly incredible. I am beyond proud of this wondrous magnificent country! I am proud to be a Canadian and proud to call this wicked ass country home! Yes Canada we are winners, and not only on the ice or in the snow, or in sweat! We are winners, every single one of us, in our hearts. We dream big, we do big, we are beaming. That's right Canada with our glory and huge hearts WE ARE GOLD!

Red, White & Gold. Canada, I love you.

-xoxo, aksana.

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