a bit of a holiday delay.

WOWZERZ... feels like I haven't been on a computer in ages!
the holidays have been pretty eventful and busy these past few days. I have lots of pictures and videos of my Christmas and Christmas eve!! buuuuut, I'm having some trouble uploading them.. will be up shortly I promise.
Here are just a few that I'm able to post, due to the fact they're taken by my macbook. oh la la.
Enjoy. Next post will be tomorrow, or the next day for sure. muah!

xoxo, aksana.

musique.

Even though I don't normally get sick of really good songs, there are a few that I can get sick of super quickly. My playlist is constantly changing, I wanted to keep ya'll updated and share a few songs that I've been feeling lately. I'm in love with music, all kinds of music.. and depending on my mood, I'm pretty open-minded. Just take a moment to youtube some of the songs, and let me know what you think.
much love - xoxo, aksana.

Michael Buble - Grown up Christmas list. ( Only cause it's Christmas <3)

Lady GaGa Ft. Beyonce - Telephone ( A. cause it's catchy B. cause beyonce is perfection )

Paramore - Playing God, Misguided Ghosts, ETC. ( Seriously love everything by Paramore )

Rihanna - Cold Case Love, Wait Your Turn, Rockstar 101, Rude Boy ( Rihanna is deep, and a gangster )

Owl City - The Saltwater Room ( I'm pretty much obsessed.. There's just something about this song.. )

Dashboard Confessional - Belle of the Boulevard (acoustic) ( Makes me feel. <3)

Rascal Flatts - Unstoppable, Why, Forever ( I absolutely love these guys, and I REALLY regret not going to their concert this past year.. ugh.. Just so much love <3)

Justin Bieber - Common Denominator, Favorite Girl ( Adorable is all I can say :D )

The Script - Talk you down, Breakeven ( Cannot get sick of these songs )

Beyonce - Scared Of Lonely ( This song has been my favorite since her album came out last year... Definitely will NEVER get sick of it... I got through a lot of stuff with this track + her album by my side. Beyonce = love for life. Is all. )

Snow?

Where is the snow??? Two days until Christmas, and no snow in sight!!! It doesn't even feel like Christmas time!! I'm watching 'Love Actually' for the second time this month, and literally the start of the second scene is '5 weeks till Christmas', a shot of London with all it's decorations and Christmasy spirit. Ugh I wish Vancouver was like that! Normally the snow would add to the effect, but not this year I guess. We had a day or two, aaaand that's pretty much it... Hopefully Vancity experiences some kind of Christmas miracle & we get some flurries (at least), on Christmas eve. I'm going to keep praying!!

P.S. ahhh 2 days, only 1 day to get the rest of my shopping done! Wish me luck!

P.S.S Ya snow is important, and so is the gift of giving, but please don't forget what Christmas is really all about. Much love everyone.

Merry almost Christmas.

-xoxo aksana

Growing up ain't easy.

Lately I've had a lot of time to think about the kind of woman I'm blossoming into. The kind of person I want to be. The way I think. The way I deal with situations. The choices I've been making. To be honest, I'm really thankful for the way God made me. I am proud of myself and the way I'm living my life. I guess I can thank my parents as well, they've always given me enough freedom as a child, but still kept me grounded. They are both the essence of who I am to this day, and it makes me so happy. I'm not perfect, obviously not even close it, but I do believe I'm a great person, that cares a lot about people, about God and my family. That has so many dreams, dreams that are slowly becoming reality. I have such an amazing life to look forward to, and I can't wait. 2010 is just around the corner, and It's gonna be my year. I feel it.

I know it.

Stay positive friends, If you're not loving yourself or your life. Take a step back and exam the way you're living it. It's important to love yourself and to have pride, and to make decisions with dignity, strength, and courage by your side. Be proud, you are all beautiful inside and out. Believe it.

Much love. :)

xoxo, aksana.

Next time, pay attention!

I cried today, and after about 5 minutes, I remembered this 'fact'... it was too late though, I couldn't remember what eye my first tear rolled out of. Poop. Maybe next time.

Let me know if you notice this... if anyone is actually reading this blog..

Much love!

xoxo, aksana

Bah, humbug.

I am amazed at how intense people are around the holidays. Working at the mall is making me realize how crazy it really is, it's seriously like a sport. I hate it. I hate that it takes me half an hour to get to a store, only because the shopping centre is infested by the shopping crazies. I hate that almost everything gets stolen. I hate that I take it personally when something gets stolen. I hate that Christmas isn't even about Christ anymore, hence the CHRIST in (christ)mas. Even if those are not your beliefs, Christmas is not supposed to be about expensive things, theft, or a time to be greedy. It's about love, giving, and happiness. I hate that I hate things around Christmas. Long days working at Metrotown Mall can do a lot to a girl. No joke.

Even with all the references to the things I hate around this time of year, there are still so many wonderful things that over power the bad. I just needed to get that out. Hope everyone is well, and shopping with lots of love. God bless & merry ALMOST christmas.

-xoxo, aksana

Ps. My next post (closer to Christmas) will be about the happy times during the holidays. I promise. :)

Let it snow!

Yippee! First snow fall of the year. Finally... I was a little worried we weren't gonna get snow this year! Looks like the winter Gods never fail here in Vancity. I know a lot of people hate the snow, walking in it especially, but I kinda love it.. even when it's absolutely freezing cold. It's all about the spirit of Christmas anyway, and you can't have Christmas without snow. Sorry, but you just can't. Lets hope it'll last till then... I'll pray for lots this year! :D

Merry (almost) Christmas everyone!

xoxo, aksana.

church.

My parents are on my butt at the moment, because it's time to leave for church, and I thought I'd write a post instead! Real quick! I'm so excited for church, I am Christian Orthodox.. but my family has not been to church as a family in about 7ish years! Can't express how happy I am right now. Saturday, praising the Lord... there is nothing better!

Anyway, I GOTTA GO!

much love everyone!

xoxo, aksana.

the homebody.

Friday night. Instead of partying it up at the clubs. Instead of grabbing a late dinner with some friends. Instead of maybe watching a movie. Instead of spending time with that special someone( don't actually have one :P ). Instead of painting the town red. I'm... spending time with my macbook. Good ol' clean fun. Love my life. haha

-xoxo aksana

my current playlist!

Hey! I thought I'd share a bit of my current playlist.

I'm super eclectic & a tad bi-polar when it comes to music. Check it out!

Vedera:

-A World Apart.

-Satisfy.

-Back to the middle.

Swimming with Dolphins:

-Pajama Party

Rihanna:

-Rude Boy

-Rockstar 101

Pitbull ft. Akon:

-Shut It Down

Phoenix:

-1901

-Rome

Paramore:

-Misguided Ghosts

Owl City:

-The Saltwater Room

-This Is The Future

OneRepublic:

-Lullaby

Kelly Clarkson:

-The Trouble With Love Is. (hehe, old song! blame 'Love Actually')

Justin Bieber:

-Common Denominator

Jason Mraz:

-Beautiful Mess

Flosstradamus:

-Big Bills

Death Cab For Cutie:

-I Will Follow You Into The Dark

much love. xoxo aksana

I don't like Libraries.

I was doing some Christmas shopping today, and as per usual found myself spending a lot of my time at Chapters. I honestly feel like a book is the best present, unless you don't read, but seriously I would be happy with a good book any day. There are so many books out there that I would like to read or own, but I either don't have the time or money to purchase them...You can't really go wrong!

Well, at least you can't go wrong in my book. eh eh. ;)

Enjoy your weekend everyone, and Merry almost Christmas!

- xoxo aksana

all you need is love.

I wonder what it's like to be in love, I wonder what it's like to feel like nothing else matters 'cause of the effect that one person has on you. You know, I've never been in love, not like that at least. I love my mum, my dad, my brother, my family & friends, God, my dog, myself... but I truly don't believe I've ever been 'in love', not really. I wonder about it all the time, how it feels, what it's like, what I have to sacrifice, even just how it works. I know it'll come, and I expect it to be amazing, almost perfect, and I wouldn't settle for any less. Sounds unrealistic, stubborn, even selfish?.. Ya maybe it does, but I don't care, I want it to be perfect. Even with it's ups and downs, love should be perfect.

-xoxo aksana

Glee!

Wow.. just wow.

I just finished watching the fall season finale of Glee, and I am seriously speechless.

If you don't already watch it, then get on it! Sheesh, I can't even express how amazing this show is, it continues to blow me away week after week. I love the cast, the songs, the characters.. I just effing love GLEE!

ps. super sad that Glee won't be back for the next season until April. So, SO sad.

-xoxo aksana

rouge.

I absolutely love these shoes!! I don't normally wear heels, seeing as I'm 5'6.5, 5'11 in heels...

makes me feel like a huge tree monster... but these are not too high, and they're RED, and just super adorbs! Wish I knew where I could buy a pair! :(

first thing to do when you've purchased a macbook...

photobooth... lovely <3

friends that are family

xoxo aksana

Still haven't decided whether I should stick with Tumblr, or completely start over with Blogspot. I suppose I'm just going to feel it out, see where this takes me. So far I'm a tad confused, but I'm sure I'll get the hang of it. The only reason I even decided to check out blogspot, was because of "Rockstar Diaries" ( taza and husband ), Naomi and her husband are incredible! I feel so inspired to live the lifestyle she and her man have created for themselves, and blog about it as well. Hopefully I can reach out to somebody as well as she has done to me.

Stick with me if you're reading this :)

thx.

xoxo aksana